last night

so im sitting here bored as fuck so i thought i'd write a blog, i had soooo much fun last night, got absolutely shit faced,i usualy dont like getting like that but i feel safe around the people i did do it around so its all good, but i learn so much everyday talking to the people i stay with and all of their friends and just learning from their past experiences, but i got some new advice about the marines and im defenitly gonna use all the knowledge i've learned to my advantage, but i feel realy blessed to have met alot of the people i have, i know god is realy looking out for me in so many ways.

Mya

well i got in touch with a realy good friend from highschool, ofcourse a girl, which means some sort of drama,

we started talkin and the more and more i talk to her the more i become attached because we always have and still do have soo much in common when it comes to life, i just dont know what to do because i know im leaving for the Marines in a week or so and i would like to start my life over but there is something about her that i've always liked, i know i have trust issues when it comes to girls because of past experiences but i know that i could trust her to the fullest extent. i just dont want to pass her up now when i actualy have a chance to have something with her and regret it down the road in life, and i've always been one that if i see a opportunity i grab it by the horns, and i think thats what i should do here. but there is one problem. she already has a boyfriend and i know she likes him alot, but i know she likes me alot too. i feel like a homewrecker if i break them up but i just can't let it go and wonder "what if". is that selfish of me?. is it wrong of me?. i just dont know..but i do know that she does mean alot to me and i know i could make her happy everyday, well a friend once told me when i write stuff on this blog page to make it deep, well this is as deep as it gets to me. i just feel torn apart in alot of different directions, but i dont know what else to say